" Cahaya Yang Riang Gembira "

Today, is the last day of 2014. A year of struggle, pain,  hard work , sweat and tears. Hoping 2015 will bring tons of happy memories. For me, for you and for every human being. Semoga kita sentiasa dalam lindungan rahmatNYA. Assalamualaikum. P/S : And one more thing for me, I'm finding a way back into love. :) * * * * * Artist Name: Hugh Grant Album Name:  Song Name: Way Back Into Love [verse 1] (drew barrymore) i've been living with a shadow overhead, i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, i've been lonely for so long, trapped in the past, i just can't seem to move on! (hugh grant) i've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, just in case i ever need them again someday, i've been setting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind! [chorus] (both) all i want to do is find a way back into love. i can't make it through without a way back into love. oooooh. [verse 2] (drew barrymore) i've been watching but the st...

Allah knows best. Now, just pray. Tawakal. Assalamualaikum. PICTURE COURTESY : MY INSTAGRAM :) P/S : Rasa macam dah malas nak menaip dekat blog. Hmmm.

I feel like it is time to end the old chapter and close the book. I'm ready to write the first word for the new chapter in my new book. I want to be happy too. I want to be appreciated too. Lets go and find my true happiness. The one that last for a long long long time. Happiness. Good night. Assalamualaikum.

Assalamualaikum. It's nearly 2 in the morning. Can't really sleep by the way. My mind is flooded with so much thought and worries. At the same time, I'm kind of feeling excited about this. Yesterday evening, Tuesday evening, I received a call that I've been waiting since last November. A job that I've always dream of. Basically, still in the medical field though. Well, even though it was just a call arranged for an interview, but somehow I'm feeling hopeful.  Going through the darkest and narrowest route in my life, problems keep knocking on my door ever since I made "that" decision 10 months ago. I drag everybody down into my problematic life, especially those near me, family and best friends. I always feel ashamed, the burden is too heavy that there are times that I thought I cannot go on anymore. But, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. I'm going to prepare myself for next week as if I'm preparing for a war. I mu...

Assalamualaikum. Thinking of sharing something meaningful. A friend sent me this few quotes she took from Google. She told me there is no need to feel broken hearted, guilty, anxious for what I did. She simply told me to forget and looking forward for the next best things in life. She said something that I know does make sense. She told me, don't fall for words, fall for actions. Yeah, I guess I'm easily fall for words when the reality there is nothing to back those words up. I really need to grow up. No more naive. Haha. Assalamualaikum.

Assalamualaikum. Salam Ahad. Hmm. Ahad yang mendamaikan, cuaca pun sangat menggalakkan mata untuk tidur. Sebenarnya tengah layan filem animasi Tarzan dekat TV tadi. Filem animasi keluaran 1999 itu serta merta buatkan aku teringat zaman kecil-kecil muda belia dulu. Rasanya ketika filem itu ditayangkan, umur aku 12 tahun. Dan abah beli VCD filem Tarzan untuk tontonan anak-anak dia. Filem Tarzan antara filem yang banyak kali kami ulang tayang dekat komputer. Pasang dekat komputer, lepas itu semua adik beradik akan bergolek baring depan monitor. Tak puas tengok movie dia, sambung pula game dia. Hehe. Zaman kanak-kanak aku zaman yang paling aku kenang. Aku membesar di Miri, Sarawak. Sejak dari usia 4 tahun, kami sekeluarga berpindah dari Kota Tinggi ke Miri sebab abah dapat tawaran mengajar di Institut Perguruan Sarawak. Sampailah usia aku 14 ke 15 tahun barulah kami pulang semula ke Semenanjung. Zaman itu zaman yang aku paling aku kenang sebab waktu itu aku paling ramai kawan....

Assalamualaikum. Jumaat dah. Bulan Disember pun dah nak 12 hari berlalu, 19 hari lagi nak jejak 2015. Harap tahun baru, dengan azam baru, moga keadaan hidup lebih bertambah baik. Kalau memang dah tertulis oleh DIA, dunia aku adalah dengan memulakan semula housemanship, mungkin 2015 adalah jawapannya. Moga ditunjukkan jalan yang terbaik hendaknya. Hari ini memang tak rancang pun sebenarnya untuk ke Seremban mengambil adik aku yang belajar di Nilai, tapi lantas teringatkan sesuatu, terus aku cakap dengan mak aku nak ikut sekali. Melaka, dah macam KL, sentiasa sesak terutama sekali Jumaat, Sabtu dan Ahad. Makin maju makin sesak.  Bertolak pukul 2, tapi nak sampai Tol Ayer Keroh makan masa sampai nak dekat satu jam. Rupanya ada kemalangan, sampai terbalik Toyota Vios. Tiang lampu pun sampai patah dua. Pertama kali aku tengok kemalangan, kereta terbalik dekat jalan bandar, selalunya dekat highway. Harapnya pemandu okaylah. Lalu kawasan kemalangan tadi, terus teringa...

Assalamualaikum. Petang. Cuaca tak berapa nak cun, nampak gaya macam nak hujan. Harapnya tidaklah hujan di petang hari, biar malam turunnya tak mengapa. Biar malam hari tidur lagi lena. Nak menulis pun malas sebenarnya. Kita dengar lagu dululah kalau boleh kiranya. Bukan peminat Aman AF 2014 sejujurnya. Tapi lagu ciptaan Awi Rafael yang ini punya maksud mendalam, yang buat aku teringat-ingat tentang seperkara dan seseorang. Ironik betul. Heh. Esok lusa menulis lagi ya. Salam petang Khamis. Semoga hari anda sentiasa ceria. Jaga diri. Assalamualaikum. AMAN - WITHOUT YOU Kredit lirik kepada SITE KISAH SI GADIS PINK Indah indahnya hatimu Lembut namamu membuat aku Tenang atas jalan terang Mudah mudahnya caramu Membuka pintu hati aku' Kau bukankan semua nyata Jangan jangan pernah pergi Kau lontarkan kembali Ku kan tetap mencari Untuk membalas baikmu Untuk menjaga dirimu Without You . . Aku hilang keliru Without You . . Aku di...

Assalamualaikum. A very cold day in Malacca. It's been raining since yesterday. I bet I'm going to sleep tight tonight. Hey! Remember the entry that I wrote a few days back? An entry about fantasy? FANTASI How I express my wish and my fantasy to have my future other half who loves to write. And guess what? As I'm browsing through my Instagram today, I saw this picture posted from rumah_adiwarna's IG account. Ouch! Exactly like what I said, I guess someone out there has this kind of wish too. "IF A WRITER FALLS IN LOVE WITH YOU, YOU CAN NEVER DIE" - Mik Everett - Seperti Usman Awang menulis Mayawati. Seperti Chairil Anwar menulis untuk Sri. Seperti Virginia menulis untuk Leonard Woolf. It's not that it means that you will never die, for real. Literally it means, when someone wrote about you lovingly, the piece he / she has written will always remain and pass through generation, it will become memory, and memory will always...

Assalamualaikum. It's Sunday. Feeling relieved. Let me start counting first. Ouh, it's been 4 days. Cut the story short, I never went back to my hometown according to what I've planned previously. Reason being is I'm feeling quite embarrass about the situation I am now. So, nothing I can do, I need to be home alone for a week. But, I was lucky because my sister came back today, no more home alone! Yippie! Tahu tak macam mana leganya perasaan itu bila mana kita tak perlu dah hidup ketakutan duduk keseorangan dalam rumah? Hmm. Ya betul, aku memang paranoid nombor satu. Bukan penakut tapi lebih pada paranoid. Eh, tak sama eh? Tidur selama 4 malam keseorangan dalam sebuah rumah, ingat boleh tidur nyenyak ke? Ayam tidur lagi nyenyak dari aku tidur. Kejap-kejap terjaga, sebab dengar macam-macam bunyi. Yang hairannya, bila dalam rumah ramai orang, tak ada pula nak dengar bunyi-bunyi pelik. Inilah namanya kuasa minda. Kuasa minda sebenarnya memang sangat ku...

Assalamualaikum. It's 5 in the morning. And it's raining outside. Feels so cold. Well, not just outside, but in the "inside" too. Literally, if you know what I mean. While waiting for the Subuh prayer, I might as well write something in my precious blog. This cold weather kind of reminds me about someone and about a song. Have you heard of the song Love Me Tender from Elvis Presley? Well, truth be told, I never ever, even once, listen to any of Elvis Presley's song. I do listen to classics, like Neil Sedaka - You Mean Everything To Me, Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody and etc. But Elvis, not really. Well, back to the story, I have never encounter any situation, not since my matriculation days, where I got people telling me that since they knew me they have been listening to that one particular song. It's like a song specially dedicated to that moment or person. Love Me Tender, that was the song. I listen to that a few times, well I sure get a...

Assalamualaikum. Sedar tak sedar dah 2 Disember. 2014 pun dah nak berakhir, 2015 pun akan menyapa tak lama lagi. Tahun yang tak berapa produktif tapi tetap bersyukur, semua yang jadi pasti ada sesuatu yang baik untuk kita. Sebab Allah lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita walaupun kita rasa tidak. Lusa dah nak pulang ke Kampung Makam. Balik kampung sekejap jenguk atuk nenek dan saudara mara, kebetulan ada kenduri kahwin sepupu mak, jadi baliklah sekejap untuk 3, 4 hari. Aku memang selalu liat sikit kalau nak balik Johor, sebab nanti macam biasalah akan dapat macam-macam soalan bonus. Tapi sekarang, dah terbiasa dan lali. Layankanlah saja Labu.   Well, another trip, another chance to shoot and shoot and shoot, filling my Instagram with tons of pictures. Aku kaki instagram sebenarnya. Tapi aku bukan kaki selfie. Cuma aku suka sangat ambil gambar. Bukan fotografer, cuma tukang snap yang merapu. Itu pun pakai handphone cikai saja. Dan aku suka jenguk Instagram yang ad...

Assalamualaikum. Menulis lagi. Bilalah agaknya keserabutan nak terlerai. Makin serabut nanti makin banyaklah menulis dan merapu merepek. Haha. Pernah tak tengok drama Korea? Kadang-kadang kita selalu tengok dialog tak kisahlah perempuan atau lelaki, mereka akan cerita tentang "what kind of romance or fantasy that you wish to have with your partner / or to wish your partner have or posses?" Selalu kan tengok mereka cakap pasal topik ini. Aku sendiri pun ada fantasi untuk kisah cinta aku. When that happen of course, only I don't know when. Only HE knows. Dari zaman sekolah lagi aku dah impikan bila dah besar nanti, aku nakkan pasangan yang seperti sekian sekian. Pasangan yang macam mana? Kalau anda-anda semua baca blog aku dari zaman awal sampai sekarang, boleh tahu macam mana orang kenal aku dengan 2 ciri utama. Pertama, entry yang panjang meleret. Kedua, entry yang jiwang leleh. That's my trademark actually. Aku suka sangat menulis. Amat sangat. Even SMS ...