" Cahaya Yang Riang Gembira "

Assalamualaikum. I'm writing again, exactly a month after my previous post. 31 years old and 15 days. Still going on steady and strong despite the reality of nearly becoming a zombie. Haha. Today is the last day of working before starting our 3 days Chinese New Year holiday. Please welcome me back, oh my bed. Been missing you for quite some time now. Before going off from work, we had our appraisal session with the big boss. Ouh. And that was fun. Haha. In 8 days plus minus, mark my 1 year working here. It's been one great of a journey, able to catch a visit to 10 hospitals within this one year. The memorable journey, I guess were the one in Penang and Sabah. I told my big boss, I've learned a lot through this journey and my interest towards healthcare management and quality healthcare has become deeper. Big boss was suggesting for me to take up fellowship course, hmm, still thinking about it. It's great for professional development but the commitment it requir...

Assalamualaikum. I wonder if this blog still has its regular visitors like it used to be, once upon a time. Haha. You never write a thing what, the last one would be in December, what do you expect Farhana? Heh! In just a blink of an eye, we already got passed half of January, 2018. I repeat, 2018! Haha. And in just a few days, the number 30 will proudly jump to 31. To make it more special, 31 years old on 31st of January. Well, I bet people will get this date to get married, right people? Haha. At the age of 31, what have I achieved? Hmmm. In term of carrier, I have been in this field nearly a year, venturing from clinical medicine into quality healthcare system is something different in total. But, what I can say, I love this newly gained experiences. It changes me a lot, personality wise, interaction with people, I became braver than before. But still a shy girl. Haha. My plan is to develop myself more in this field, to become an expertise on it. Thinking of furthering ...

Assalamualaikum. After so long of not writing anything in this, finally I got the feels and needs to write something. To let it all out. It's 12.30 in the morning. Sleepy but my fingers are actively typing, non-stop. Do you have paranoia? I never knew that I have this feeling, scared, paranoid, anxious as I am not this kind of person if you met me a few years back. I guess there are life events that could change your way of thinking, your confidence, how you carry yourself. I'm scared. I don't know why, but I hate myself for having a feeling like this. The negative thoughts always flood my mind. Heh. Lets say someone like me, and I reciprocate, the way they pursue you, you will got that negative thought like "if he can pursue you this way, he may already done it a few hundred times with other girls. If he can care for you in such a way that you may fall in love with him, he may do the same to other girl who will fall for him too." I hate t...

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.  [Leo Buscaglia] Assalamualaikum. Well well, its been a while. Busy with life, busy with works, and that never ends. But I love it. I learn a lot every day.  Well, the planning was to write a short post, I promise it will be short. For someone who loves to write a long post, its really difficult to cut down all the blabbing and ranting for introduction.  Actually, I just came back from a 5 days outstation. Tiring, but as usual a fruitful experience. During the last day of our survey, one of the surveyor in the team said this to the other surveyors during our random conversation. He said, "this girl is one of the good officer, she always smile no matter what. You can see her always smiling." :) Ouh, that really made my day. It did. And even after 2 d...

Assalamualaikum. Apa khabar??? Uiii. Macam dengar bunyi gema segenap blog Cahaya Yang Riang Gembira. Haha. Maklumlah lama tak menulis. Tak ada idea nak menulis. Mood tengah membuak-buak nak duduk berborak-borak, chit chatting dengan orang. Eh, tetiba kan. Adoi. 2 minggu yang agak sibuk. 2 minggu juga aku berjauhan dari laptop kesayangan aku. Selama ini memang susah gila nak berenggang, bila berpisah 2 minggu rasa macam 2 tahun. Kikiki. 2 minggu yang sudah aku outstation ke Sabah. It was fun to revisit a place that gives you thousands of beautiful memories with your classmates. Haih. Rasa macam nak ajak kawan-kawan sekelas dulu buat trip lagi ke Sabah. Tapi apakan daya masing-masing sibuk dengan kerjaya dan rumahtangga. Heeee. Balik saja dari Sabah, aku sempat rehat dalam sehari dua, sebelum aku terbang sekali lagi. Terbang aku seminggu yang lalu juga masih atasan urusan kerja. Rezeki Allah nak bagi, memang tak dijangka, memang tiba-tiba datang bergolek depan mata, syukur pad...

Assalamualaikum. Hihi. Lama tak conteng dinding rumah ni. Apa khabar semua? Masing-masing duduk menghadap kipas sambil minum air sejuk ke? Kikiki. Maklumlah cuaca panas semenjak dua menjak dekat ibu kota ni kan. Nak tidur pun berkicap. Bukan saja cuaca panas berpeluh-peluh, darah pun rasa menggelegak sambil cuba nak tahan sabar. Haha. Sebenarnya aku bukan jenis suka marah tengking-tengking pun. Sekali sekala, itu pun dekat adik-adik aku kalau pesen tak dengar cakap. Nak marah orang lain, rasanya peratusannya sangatlah rendah. Tak reti marah orang, tapi kemarahan ada, cuma aku tak keluarkan, aku simpan dekat dalam. Aku keluarkan rasa marah selalunya dalam bentuk butir-butir air mata. Hahaha. Macam mana eh nak jadi macam Supergirl? Kebal. Tapi bukan kebal dengan tumbukan, dengan belasah orang jahat, tapi kebal dengan tengkingan dan jerkahan, kalis maki senang cerita. Bila kena marah, tak rasa apa pun. Tak rasa hati kau macam tisu yang jatuh dalam cawan air, tak rasa buti...

Assalamualaikum. It's 10 at night. Tons of work, never ending, finishing a report, then here comes another. What a life. Haha. But it's something that I enjoyed doing, I now know how is it feel to fall in love. Ops!! Haha. (Habislah kalau jadi gila kerja lepas ni, workaholic!!! Errrrmmm) =p In the midst of this busy and blissful life, syukur Alhamdulillah, someone asked me, "Don't you want to get another shot at love? Don't you want to fall in love again?" Wow!! It's about love. Haha. I kinda forget about it as I am busy "loving" my job. Phew!!! Hmmm. What a tough question eyh? Why are you asking by the way? Haiyooo. Who doesn't want a chance, who doesn't want to be loved? Tell me who? Well, it's just not the time yet. You know, the calling. Here's a story about chance. One chance that I miss, and yes I regret it. A story of me and an awkward little boy. Haha. It's 2009. A year of blogging hype. I ...