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Assalamualaikum. After so long of not writing anything in this, finally I got the feels and needs to write something. To let it all out. It's 12.30 in the morning. Sleepy but my fingers are actively typing, non-stop. Do you have paranoia? I never knew that I have this feeling, scared, paranoid, anxious as I am not this kind of person if you met me a few years back. I guess there are life events that could change your way of thinking, your confidence, how you carry yourself. I'm scared. I don't know why, but I hate myself for having a feeling like this. The negative thoughts always flood my mind. Heh. Lets say someone like me, and I reciprocate, the way they pursue you, you will got that negative thought like "if he can pursue you this way, he may already done it a few hundred times with other girls. If he can care for you in such a way that you may fall in love with him, he may do the same to other girl who will fall for him too." I hate t

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.  [Leo Buscaglia] Assalamualaikum. Well well, its been a while. Busy with life, busy with works, and that never ends. But I love it. I learn a lot every day.  Well, the planning was to write a short post, I promise it will be short. For someone who loves to write a long post, its really difficult to cut down all the blabbing and ranting for introduction.  Actually, I just came back from a 5 days outstation. Tiring, but as usual a fruitful experience. During the last day of our survey, one of the surveyor in the team said this to the other surveyors during our random conversation. He said, "this girl is one of the good officer, she always smile no matter what. You can see her always smiling." :) Ouh, that really made my day. It did. And even after 2 days